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Run.


Jasmine wants




Plead

talk to monster and monster won't eat you.




Victims


upcoming! fun schedule equivalent :)

x Love Matters (Sunday) it's a terrible movie. =(
x The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (TBA)
x Cycling (TBA) --> I miss cycling =(
x Current Affairs Workshop (10,11,12 March)
x Thieves Market OH SO FUN! =D OWL BAG! <333
x 12 Rounds <-- hmm, boring movie? zzzzz *retches at mention of popcorn*
x Visit Objectif <-- LOMO Embassy; lomos are expensive. =(
x ARTFRIEND WAS FUN; haahs, if you consider trying not to fold a piece of turquoise tracing paper and bring it home in one piece fun.
x Knowing (Saturday)
x chalet! (13-16 April) <3333333
x X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE FOUND :D

Dramas
x Witch Yoo Hee
x ToGetHer (ai jiu zhai yi qi)
x Boys over Flowers
x Grey's Anatomy S5 WAITING S6!!
x House S5 SEASON 6 HURRY OUT!
x Gokugen 1, 2, 3

Movies
x Coraline
x Knowing
x Potter
x X-Men Origins: WOLVERINE

Sewing Machine
x fabrics purchase GOT THEM! =D
x attempts to create: jewellery tools case, purses, passport cover, lappy cozy
x BOOK COVER! COMPLETE!

Photography
x amateur photography --> kinda suck at this huh? (well, ongoing)

OHLIQ
x finish selling those ragged pieces of clothes! (can I give up already? :S)

Jasmine/A Tinge of Aquamarine
x jewellery tuning
x photography
x conceptualise
x photoshop

Cooking
x attempt to arrange/attend cooking lessons once a week with my mother CLOSE to giving up on this. :P

Fleas
x visit the theives' market at sugei road (since I FINALLY found out how to get there :) (wed) <3333333333

Fitness
x once-twice weekly jogging :) hey, relieves stress and increases metabolism! very very good. =) (or others like tennis and cycling)--> these no time. =(
x GOAL: to lose weight to below **kg :D
x dance class
x GOLF! lol.
x kayaking!

CCA stuff
x NYAA Chapter
x SPIN@TRM - NATAS

WISH LIST
x Disderi 3 Lens Camera =) --> Spreeing it! :D
x headphones? Those vintage kind! Plus won't mess my hair! (note* my head is pretty big, pls make necessary allowances. :P) --> anyone want to bring me to Jaben/Stereo?
x Jewellery Case/Box for bringing to Taipei. =)
x Maybe you can get me stuffs for my OIAP. hahas, just please, don't give me a ricecooker. -_-
x New Glasses
x Contact Lens
x Nude Heels and Gladiator Sandals!--> waiting waiting waiting!!
x Casual Blazer!--> bought! but the seller superrr slow. :(
x Robot Necklace & whale earrings!--> think I may forgo these two, whale earrings not so nice, may switch to birdie instead! Robot mahs, idk...
x Polar Bear Wire Wrap!
x Two new bags I kan shang online. Should be getting it. Except dno when she ordering also... O_O
x External Harddisk :x

leave now and monster won't eat you.



Obituaries

Elle.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Was I scared? I guess I just did not want to continue this any longer...Or did I? Then why did I instinctively turn away? If I wanted to continue, I should have been super happy seeing him, but instead, the shudder I had from before the trip returned...Was it a shudder? I have no idea what it was exactly, but I get what hua means by a trauma now, I seem to have no wish to see him anymore...I have a fear of running into him and get jumpy, scanning all the faces hoping none of them belong to him. What happened to yesterday's emotions, I do not know, all I know is that my heart seems to have rejected him.

This is all very one-sided. It's as if I can write a whole essay without him even doing anything or trying anything. But I guess that's just the point, he doesn't do anything to change anything. Which is why I can write so many contradicting stuff and which is why I can say one thing one day and turn 180 the next. I never know what he is thinking, and I cannot understand my emotions at the moment, but it's said to be very intense today. I guess that's what they mean; my heart was racing and it really lived out my blog title--my heart skipped more than a few beats~ I just hoped he would notice me later or just move away. Sadly, it was the latter, but still relief washed over me and I could breathe again...

I suddenly had a vision of me talking to him in the rain and him rejecting me and I tearing. Is that wrong? In a way I sort of detest the thought but I wish it would happen so that I can move on too. What's with contradicting thoughts lately? I guess a part of me knows that it cannot be and wants me to move on already. Yet, another part is telling me to wait and see. And right now I cannot say which is the best option for me, and I'm not planning to go with any advice from third parties because I think such things should be decided by me, so that it will fully take effect. There is no point if I myself am not fully convinced I am going to let go. Thus, for now, since moving on requires interaction, waiting and seeing does not, that's all I can do. And I guess that's the way it works too, I have to deal with the hope that grows within me with waiting and seeing. And that's just the problem; hope grows with each day and the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment later, which is probably why everyone is advising me to let go and get it over sooner than later so that hope is curbed and hurt is kept to a minimum.

I want to fall in love, but all romantic possibilities will probably not be possible in the near future... ):